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Lachesis, when we were in the City, would sometimes communicate with imPorts via our network. She was -- cryptic at best, with a penchant for putting imPorts into situations that we would have rather avoided. She has been silent here, something which has made me incredibly uneasy. The technology, however -- some people tried to analyse it in the City, I believe, but whether their research ever came to fruition isn't something I know. Kanaya Maryam was in the City longer than I and there are scientists here with the means to theorize better than I.
Please, Rose.
[ Gentler now: ]
Kanaya's hiding something, isn't she?
[ Gentler now: ]
Kanaya's hiding something, isn't she?
No problem.
And ... good luck with it.
[And she'll try to stop arguing with Kanaya about it.
Probably.]
And ... good luck with it.
[And she'll try to stop arguing with Kanaya about it.
Probably.]
Can you please tell your mom about your girlfriend so she doesn't think I'm dating her because honestly that is the weirdest thing in the history of the universe that I've been asked.
And people regularly think I'm dating Loki.
[Which is now ranked second. Why is this happening.]
And people regularly think I'm dating Loki.
[Which is now ranked second. Why is this happening.]
Wait, is she your ex now?
This is messy.
Oh, wow, I maybe just opened a mess can of worms. I'm so sorry, Rose.
This is messy.
Oh, wow, I maybe just opened a mess can of worms. I'm so sorry, Rose.
To be fair, I did also think that you and Loki were dating. Full disclosure, I still have money on your possible future nuptuals. If you are a real pal, Kate, you might consider a shot gun Vegas wedding so that I might earn some extra cash.
Roxy thinks you and Kanaya are hate dating, probably. That's a thing, on Kanaya's planet. I think it is also a thing from Roxy's timeline? To an outsider, you two are pretty hate-datey. Very 'Ooohhh Ms. Bishop, You Are So Insufferable And Terrible, I Want To Be Your Stubborn Rival For The End Of Time!' To ease your mind, I can assure you with ninety-percent accuracy that Kanaya just platonically does not like you. But I will speak to Roxy and assure her of Kanaya's four-way singleness.
Also yes, I think she is my ex now. We are most definitely on a break of some sort, given my dating her ended with her incarcerated and with me in the hospital. Don't worry about it. We have broken up over worse (though in hindsight, funnier) reasons. You will recall the arm story. That one was pretty terrible and -- quite literally -- messy. This one might be permanent though? I haven't really allowed myself to think to hard about it.
Roxy thinks you and Kanaya are hate dating, probably. That's a thing, on Kanaya's planet. I think it is also a thing from Roxy's timeline? To an outsider, you two are pretty hate-datey. Very 'Ooohhh Ms. Bishop, You Are So Insufferable And Terrible, I Want To Be Your Stubborn Rival For The End Of Time!' To ease your mind, I can assure you with ninety-percent accuracy that Kanaya just platonically does not like you. But I will speak to Roxy and assure her of Kanaya's four-way singleness.
Also yes, I think she is my ex now. We are most definitely on a break of some sort, given my dating her ended with her incarcerated and with me in the hospital. Don't worry about it. We have broken up over worse (though in hindsight, funnier) reasons. You will recall the arm story. That one was pretty terrible and -- quite literally -- messy. This one might be permanent though? I haven't really allowed myself to think to hard about it.
If I get married to anyone, it's going to be someone I'm actually interested in having sex with in the next five years. Sorry about your Vegas bets. (I'm also going to pretend you didn't actually think that, and are just saying it for the sake of teasing. Please don't tell me any differently.)
Hate dating. I really hope Kanaya has not somehow gotten the wrong idea from my belligerence, because that's also a conversation I don't ever want to have. Ever. There is a difference between arguments being sexual tension and "why are you so condescending, is it possible for you to stop." The latter is completely Kanaya. Eugh.
You don't have to think about it, though! Sometimes it's best that you don't, and she's clearly still determined to play the penitent bad guy. It probably won't lead to the best of conversations. Communication is key except when it's not, so just take care of yourself.
Hate dating. I really hope Kanaya has not somehow gotten the wrong idea from my belligerence, because that's also a conversation I don't ever want to have. Ever. There is a difference between arguments being sexual tension and "why are you so condescending, is it possible for you to stop." The latter is completely Kanaya. Eugh.
You don't have to think about it, though! Sometimes it's best that you don't, and she's clearly still determined to play the penitent bad guy. It probably won't lead to the best of conversations. Communication is key except when it's not, so just take care of yourself.
Don't worry. Like I said, her dislike is purely platonic. I saw her hate-flirting with Vriska Serket, undoubtedly you would already be the recipient of a Kanaya Maryam smooch by now if she were interested pursuing a romantic rivalry with you.
Mostly I am just feeling very sorry for myself.Taking care of myself has been primarily 'stop trying to sleep on your broken arm, Rose!' On an unrelated note, Kate -- you're from the same world as Norman Osborn, correct? The old one with the wrinkles, not the new one who doesn't have the wrinkles.
Mostly I am just feeling very sorry for myself.Taking care of myself has been primarily 'stop trying to sleep on your broken arm, Rose!' On an unrelated note, Kate -- you're from the same world as Norman Osborn, correct? The old one with the wrinkles, not the new one who doesn't have the wrinkles.
[A significant pause. ]
She is. I can't fathom why she has insisted on taking the blame for this entire mess, but she has. Her guilt is misplaced.
[Another pause, this time so she can drag her good hand down her face. ]
What do you already know, if anything?
She is. I can't fathom why she has insisted on taking the blame for this entire mess, but she has. Her guilt is misplaced.
[Another pause, this time so she can drag her good hand down her face. ]
What do you already know, if anything?
[ kanaya lucked out on missing rose while she was moving out. when she comes home, kanaya's former office is empty, and rose's room has been cleaned, clothes folded and all the books returned to the shelf, except three that are missing.
of course, the most notable thing is probably the 41 bundles of cash piled on the floor, 50 $20 bills in each. so, kanaya noticed she didn't empty the safe. ]
when you come home ill have removed my things already
anything ive left behind defaults to your possession
meager offering as that is
the truth is that i cant return to that house
i cant return to the lives we had made for us before as if nothing had happened
and neither can i bring myself to look you in the eye any longer
i know youll think im overreacting
that because it wasnt my choice the blame shouldnt rest on my shoulders
but that doesnt change what happened
or what it was like
hobgoblin was still me even if her decisions werent mine to make
i can remember all of it
all of her thought processes i still recognize as my own
even when i did what i had to you
its nothing i can be forgiven for
i dont want you to feel that temptation or obligation
and thats why i have to go
ive done enough to you already
however much i may love you i was only a weapon used to break you in the end
and i wasnt even successful in avenging the matter
so this is the last hurt ill inflict on you
im sorry that this is how it had to end
but this is my goodbye
of course, the most notable thing is probably the 41 bundles of cash piled on the floor, 50 $20 bills in each. so, kanaya noticed she didn't empty the safe. ]
when you come home ill have removed my things already
anything ive left behind defaults to your possession
meager offering as that is
the truth is that i cant return to that house
i cant return to the lives we had made for us before as if nothing had happened
and neither can i bring myself to look you in the eye any longer
i know youll think im overreacting
that because it wasnt my choice the blame shouldnt rest on my shoulders
but that doesnt change what happened
or what it was like
hobgoblin was still me even if her decisions werent mine to make
i can remember all of it
all of her thought processes i still recognize as my own
even when i did what i had to you
its nothing i can be forgiven for
i dont want you to feel that temptation or obligation
and thats why i have to go
ive done enough to you already
however much i may love you i was only a weapon used to break you in the end
and i wasnt even successful in avenging the matter
so this is the last hurt ill inflict on you
im sorry that this is how it had to end
but this is my goodbye
I know that you don't want to hear it, but I forgive you. The moment I knew that it was you, I forgave you. I can't hold you responsible for decisions you did not make. I can't blame you for getting involved in a situation that I forced you into. I put you in danger long before you became Hobgoblin and there are no apologies big enough or sincere enough for me to make that might atone for that. I will never regret being honest with you, but I should have kept you out of this.
I think that truth of the matter is that you will be safer away from me as much as you think that I will be safer away from you. I don't expect a response to this and that's fine, but you know me -- I can't let things lie.
He won't get away with what he's done to you. I promise.
I think that truth of the matter is that you will be safer away from me as much as you think that I will be safer away from you. I don't expect a response to this and that's fine, but you know me -- I can't let things lie.
He won't get away with what he's done to you. I promise.
[ she's reluctant to argue, after all she's done already, but that's something she can't just let lie. she can't bear to see rose consumed with a guilt she doesn't deserve. ]
thats bullshit and you know it
you didnt force my involvement into anything
i was the one who pried and wouldnt let you leave me out of it
at every opportunity if anyone was forcing my involvement it was myself
i didnt want to be kept out and wouldnt allow it
and that fault isnt yours
i was supposed to protect you
[ even as hobgoblin, she realizes now. her stalking wasn't meant to be a threat, but some warped sense of wanting to be present if trouble arose. what kanaya wanted filtered through what hobgoblin did, what she did without her usual restraints. ]
all i became in the end is a weapon
and i suppose thats all ive ever been good for
which really just goes to show how dangerous we all are
all this power we have that can be redirected to hurt others so easily
we shouldnt have it
we dont deserve it
every moment we remain here is another that risks more anguish on this world
all because of us
thats bullshit and you know it
you didnt force my involvement into anything
i was the one who pried and wouldnt let you leave me out of it
at every opportunity if anyone was forcing my involvement it was myself
i didnt want to be kept out and wouldnt allow it
and that fault isnt yours
i was supposed to protect you
[ even as hobgoblin, she realizes now. her stalking wasn't meant to be a threat, but some warped sense of wanting to be present if trouble arose. what kanaya wanted filtered through what hobgoblin did, what she did without her usual restraints. ]
all i became in the end is a weapon
and i suppose thats all ive ever been good for
which really just goes to show how dangerous we all are
all this power we have that can be redirected to hurt others so easily
we shouldnt have it
we dont deserve it
every moment we remain here is another that risks more anguish on this world
all because of us
I have experience with the the Gods of the Furthest Ring. Though, I suppose I qualify under deity now too. Experience: maximum.
In any case, I think Lachesis thinks that she is a deity. She certainly has the power to back the claim up. Artificial intelligence with omniscient capabilities?
In any case, I think Lachesis thinks that she is a deity. She certainly has the power to back the claim up. Artificial intelligence with omniscient capabilities?
*I* was supposed to protect *you*! I'm the God! I'm supposed to have the sense and the foresight to keep you safe! You are powerful and wonderful and capable of chainsawing a man in two, but you shouldn't have to because I'm supposed to keep the bad guys at bay!
You're not a monster, Kanaya. You're
You're a good troll. You have to know that, deep down.
You're not a monster, Kanaya. You're
You're a good troll. You have to know that, deep down.
protecting me was never your job
whats the point in protecting someone that doesnt die or damage
especially when shes worthless to begin with
protecting you was more than just a promise i made to you when you finally told me about it
enriching your life and making it brighter was my whole point to being alive
i was meant not only to be a ward against evil but a source of good and now ive been neither
do you even realize what being a good troll means
a good troll will stop at nothing to fulfill the duty she has to her queen
and in that i am nothing but a failure
but a good troll is also proficient in violence
cutthroat and merciless
whatever stands against her will be cut down without hesitation
individual lives dont matter to her as long as her goals are at the fore
so if i have been a good troll then i have also been a poor resident to this planet
which perhaps is the inevitability of being an import
by being here we have upset the balance of its culture and politics
and only brought untold harm to its citizens
in being a good troll i have been a wickedness cast upon those people
a wickedness that rests with all of us
we dont deserve to be here
we should all have died in atropos
whats the point in protecting someone that doesnt die or damage
especially when shes worthless to begin with
protecting you was more than just a promise i made to you when you finally told me about it
enriching your life and making it brighter was my whole point to being alive
i was meant not only to be a ward against evil but a source of good and now ive been neither
do you even realize what being a good troll means
a good troll will stop at nothing to fulfill the duty she has to her queen
and in that i am nothing but a failure
but a good troll is also proficient in violence
cutthroat and merciless
whatever stands against her will be cut down without hesitation
individual lives dont matter to her as long as her goals are at the fore
so if i have been a good troll then i have also been a poor resident to this planet
which perhaps is the inevitability of being an import
by being here we have upset the balance of its culture and politics
and only brought untold harm to its citizens
in being a good troll i have been a wickedness cast upon those people
a wickedness that rests with all of us
we dont deserve to be here
we should all have died in atropos
[ she doesn't know if rose has already figured it out or not, what with karkat's complete lack of discretion, but kanaya's gotten too much news from home indelicately delivered. if it's going to turn out that they're from a doomed timeline, rose deserves to hear it from someone who isn't just going to blurt it out casually.
dave said he'd keep mum, but dave intending not to say something and dave not saying something are completely different things. kanaya knows she doesn't have much time to waste, even sleeping on it first may have lost some of it. talking to rose always takes some emotional preparation these days. ]
we need to talk about something important
in person
dave said he'd keep mum, but dave intending not to say something and dave not saying something are completely different things. kanaya knows she doesn't have much time to waste, even sleeping on it first may have lost some of it. talking to rose always takes some emotional preparation these days. ]
we need to talk about something important
in person
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